Pardon my tears for a little bit...when I pulled away from the blank empty dark windows of the shop today...It was such a shock I just needed to cry all the way home...just might feel really good to cry all night.
Besides all of the good..I thought of the bad too, or the parts I really disliked about running the shop, it helped ease the pain...like sharing a bathroom with the barber and he never taking a turn to clean, or tons of leaves that fall non stop, or wonder what would happen if I got sick, or a snow storm to drive in, or getting robbed (which never happened), paying all the bills on time, what to wear,driving 30 mins each way to work...etc.etc. etc.
My husband was laughing at customers Cathy and Charlene today...they boldly stated to him that we had ruined their life by closing! He has told me all night how I ruined someones life! They were customers/became friends in my very first store in the early 1990's. Aren't they precious, I just love and adore them. I love that vintage really does matter to them, always has and always will...and that it does to so many of you.
Mostly... it was really good tender loving & thankful thoughts, friends I've made, things that were learned.My husband is more like "we sure did move alot of stuff through that place" type of feelings. Although it is impossible to make everyone happy I understand that's just how business works.
And I'm so sorry for those situations that just didn't go right.
But right now I need to go back to my crying.
Probably just exhausted... and it will pass.
Our garage is so stuffed...the truck fits by less than an inch I was told! Oh dear...I may be busier than I want to be! But for now...I will savour getting the choice to just "do what I want." Really, that's what retired people do??? I have so much to learn about this!
Jan 1 2014... I will be ready to start the new year with my new word...BALANCE.